I lied in my last post.

So in my last post I talked about how I haven't had the freak out about graduation that everyone else has. I lied. Technically that isn't true. My graduation freak out came early - way back early fall semester. During that time I had been dealing with lot of regret and confusion about how I'd spent the three previous years of my college career. I wasn't happy with my major and I was upset that maybe I'd spent my time at App doing the wrong things. In the fall of 2014 I had transferred to App State from UNCW with the hope of majoring in graphic design. After spending about a year in the art department, I realized I wasn't going to be able to graduate on time if I stayed on that path. That's what led to advertising. It was still a creative major, but allowed me to graduate on the timeline that I wanted - for the life of me, I can't remember why this was so important to me.

I enjoyed the creative side of my new major for about a year, meaning I enjoyed the classes that pertained to graphic design and copywriting. However the rest of my courses I wasn't enjoying and I didn't feel like I was learning much from. There was a lot of doubt in my mind that this was the field I should be going into. It was then that I starting exploring the idea of graduate school. I didn't know what I wanted to do quite yet. But it was something new for me to look into.

​It wasn't until one day in my Public Relations class last semester that I got a little inspiration. Even though my professor was out that day, we still had class. Instead of a lecture, our substitute professor for the day introduced us to a documentary called 'Batkid' about a four year old boy with leukemia. The "Make-A-Wish" foundation - a non-profit I had heard of and worked with in the past - had given this kid a wish. In result of this wish the city of San Francisco was transformed into the city of Gotham and this little boy got to be Batkid for a day. By the time our class finished watching the documentary, something had just 'clicked' in my head. I don't know whether if it was inspiration or a sign - all I knew was that non-profit was the direction I wanted to go towards next.

And that's how I'm avoiding the graduation freak out that everyone else is currently experiencing. 'Batkid' gave me the push in the right direction that I needed. A push towards a non-profit graduate program here at App.

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